Memories Fall

The way that our relationships with other people change over time and even when the negative aspects of people are used by God to influence us can sometimes bring back memories. Sometimes, I wish that I could go back to the version of people I used to know. 

That's why I love this quote so much:

"Sometimes memories sneak out of my eyes and roll down my cheeks." 

This is my feelings put into words of what I would say to a person about how they have impacted me and how I miss who they used to be; and that even though they may not be doing the best things with their life, I want God to bless them. 

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If you only knew how much you have impacted my life, and how much I wish that things could go back to the way they used to be.  The choices you are making though, make me wonder if you really know what you are doing with your life. Your negative choices won't let you live the life that you were made to live. You definitely  compare yourself to others standards instead of to God's standards.

But there are so many things that I still admire about you, and things that I wish you would realize. The way that you're hobbies are unique to you, and you don't quit when people make fun of you for them is something I admire.
You care about your schoolwork even though its tempting to slack off and just get away with "B's", and that is something I admire. I admire how you aren't vain about your appearance, but you seem comfortable with who you are.
I wish you would realize that when you talk to someone one day and seem to be interested in having a friendship, and then the next day you don't blink an eye unless the person comes and expresses interest in talking to you, that you become known as an inconsistent person.
I hate how you seem to flirt with everyone, even though you already have that someone special.
I don't like how your relationship with Jesus Christ doesn't seem very real and you don't really seem to live it out.
You make me question so many things and you make me so puzzled inside. I wonder if I can trust you, and I wonder if the things that have been told about you are actually true.
Is it true of the illegal things that you have gotten into, or is it all just a joke?
I hate how you don't seem to take serious relationships that you are in serious because of the multiple people that you have dated, even in this year.
God has taught me lessons through your life. One of them is that you can never rely or want to be in a relationship or friendship with someone so bad that you forget about your relationship with Jesus Christ and start to excuse the faults that are found in the person. HUGE faults.
The way that you influence me isn't always positive, but yet your life has had a positive impact on me through your negative actions.
I want you to know that I love you with the love that Christ has given us, and I am happy to say I know you.
I want the very best for you, and most of all, I don't you to get hurt through a negative decision you decide to make. I hope God continues to use your life to impact others, even though you have absolutely no clue how God used you to grow me closer to himself.
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This is a person that I have gotten to know better and watch from a distance the choices they make. In the past couple of weeks, I have tried to built more of a stable friendship...ya know, one that includes talking more than once a week. But then I was influenced to try and be someone that I wasn't, and it wasn't his fault, but God definitely taught me something through that. I knew that I needed to step away and stop trying to force a relationship that may not even need to occur.

Have you ever been confused by a friendship (or one that you tried to create) and were utterly baffled and confused by the signals that you got from the other person?